Life.. so far :)

Assalamualaikum WBT,
Life has been wonderful these past few months. If it continues to be this way, I dare to say that the lyrics of the new World Cup anthem will also apply to me haha.. You know the part "When I get older, I will be stronger.." thingy.. Somehow I find the song VERY inspiring hahaha.. Perhaps its the extra testosterone or something but that is how I feel right now haha..

Hmm, what should I post first? Err, lets do this chronologically lah..
First, I got a work at a bank.. I applied on February and durang called on the day before the first of April. Actually, I planned to work from February till May saja so bila durang offered the contract I was a bit hesitant to accept it. Tapi durang gitau we can terminate the contract anytime as long as kami bagi a 24-hours notice.

Tapi aku notify my supervisors like 2-weeks in advanced haha.. Sampai annoyed durang balik-balik aku mengira berapa hari aku kan beranti.. Aku beranti atu bukan pasal ngalih or cannot cope with the workload, tapi the primary reason is pasal I want to study for the upcoming STEP exams. Gila, it costs my sister $270 so I don't think I should take it lightly haha.. And the pay is way too low. You know, the other temporary workers dalam batch ku kan semuanya keraja durang very specific. Some do filing, some answer calls, some buat stamping and etc.. You get the idea, most of the time they only do one or two tasks wah.. But me on the other hand, kana suruh buat kan semua lah except things that involved accessing the system. Atu pun pasal userID ku kana delete pasal inactive.

I helped with the filing, answering calls, making calls, preparing agreements, attending customers, photocopying as well as jadi interoffice postboy hahaha.. And sama jua gajiku sama durang, inda jua adil tu! Hmmm, tapi aku balas dendam dengan cara akhir datang and awal balik lah haha.. Office hours start at 830 wah, and aku biasanya datang 8.45 to 930 haha.. I don't see the use of coming early pasal the seniors makan breakfast for like 30mins in the morning and I can't eat breakfast pasal of my IBS. And and and, durang inda pernah marahi aku pasal akhir ani cause if ku datang awal then awal tia siap kajaku and they won't have anything to suruh aku buat. Kalau nada kerajaku balik th ku tu hahahaha..

OK, so I quit my work on 6th of May 2010. At least I get to put something under the Employment section arah my CV! Woohoo! And tadi aku keluarkan gaji untuk lanja Dino and Heng dimsum.. And have to give $100 to my brother for his birthday. Bertuah adiku ani, duitnya betimbun arah bank. Macam inda ku pecaya wah atu accountnya haha.. Inda apalah, janji ia inda menjurit and mengusut malam-malam arah bilikku pasal speaker lagi syukur tah.. And adiku bini-bini lagi minta balikan headphone. Anak buahku yang manja minta bawa main ke arcade, bali baju sama almari baju lagi. Kan bagi parents lagi and bali hadiah untuk mother's day! hahahahaa, aku rasa tinggal $50 saja ni ujung-ujungnya untuk aku.. Tapi oklah, janji happy :)

And and and, I am also teaching tuition! Ada kawanku ani (yang gajinya $1000+!!!) punya manager suruh aku ngajar anaknya. Oklah, pasal once a week and $10 per hour. Guess subject apa ku ajar? PHYSICS yo! hahahaha, tapi you know what.. I am starting to actually like physics. I took my time understanding each topic and I find that they are not really that difficult. Had I spent more time for Physics during my A-Level course, I am pretty sure I can score better grade. Hahaha, inda bersyukur :D

Then I got two awards at the MD Academic Award ceremony 2010. One for Top Overall Achiever for A-Level and Top Scorer for Computing. It was quite boring and I lost $25 for attending it. Hmm, inda apalah.. Syukur Alhamdulillah.. At least betambah jua sijil ku.. BTW, for this event aku dapat 2 sijil. Add one for my BCTA and I have collected 3 certs in April.

Then then then, you remember the HSBC competition that we joined? Yeah, we lost hahaha... But we still got $100(which we spent for today's BBQ.. Yes, all of it) and certs for it. So thats 4 certs for me, yeay!

Lapas atu, ada lagi the Brilliance award. Finally, I got one! hahaha.. But its the minor one. I only managed Top in Brunei for Computing. Pfft, all A in my modules and still only top in Brunei? This is really really disappointing.. But again, Alhamdulillah :) Yang siuknya, I got 2 certs for one award! One from the MoE and another one, which I loveeeee, is from University of Cambridge! It looks like our statement of results but ofcourse with different wording.. Suka ku eh! hahaha..
So, thats 6 certs for me!

Then today, ada majlis Anugerah Pelajar-Pelajar Cemerlang. I got one award, Pelajar Cemerlang peringkat Negara. And for this event, I was not only participating as a 'mere' participant aahaha.. I was asked to write and give out a speech IN MALAY as a representative of all the recipients! ahaha, I know.. Crap right? But thats not the worst part.. I was chosen because I was the first student in the Peringkat Negara recipients (I was the 26th BTW) who is a Malay, Muslim, Bruneian and is from a government school.. Hahaha, I know.. These reasons sounds very racist and sort of promotes discrimination. I tried to reason with the highest authoritative figure that I know, why I should not be the one to be the 'wakil' and so on.

But then, she explained to me their reasons. While they still doesn't sounds right to me, I guess their concerns are as valid as mine. However, I cannot share them with you all cause I don't think its suitable for public consumption :P And I am not planning to disclose them to anyone anytime soon, so back off people! hahaha.. Soo, since I was just a small part in a huge plan, I don't think I have any rights to disturb the grand plan and to cause more headache to the organizers, I decided to just play along and put my reputation at risk (hahaha, but this is VERY true.)

So, I spent like 15mins to write up a crappy speech. I tried very hard to inspire and I think my desperation comes across crystal clear to the audience haha.. Submitted it to the principal for adjustments and she promised to email me the edited version.

I waited until the rehearsal day and still no email. Sekali masa rehearsal barutah ia bagi and then ia gtau ia jarang pakai email :S She should've just said so wah, inda jua ku tertunggu-tunggu. Ish ish.. Ilang tia sikit respect ku nah.

I was very nervous about the speech cause the audiencenya all the top students of Brunei and also ALL of the top officials in Emm-Ooo-Eee.. I tried to sound as enthusiastic and convincing as possible. But err, I don't think I did well. I mean, the Menteri did clap his hands after my speech so did the audience but I think all that is out of pity HAHAHA... But at least everything was going as planned. When I walked down from the stage, the promoter said "Excellent! Well done!" and that was the first feedback which did make me feel a LOT better and it made me feels good for the rest of the day. ahahahaha.. Then, as I walked to my seat, some shook my hands and said "Congratulations".. Hmm, Bruneians are so nice, hahaha..

Eh, I think I should share more about my feeling masa on the stage. I am pretty sure that our very own Aizuddin will have his very own version of this paragraph pasal he also gave a speech in front of the Menteri in PTEM. Ohh, SMB must've been so proud of us! hahaha, dua orang SMB lagi tu din! Woohoo! So, coming back to the main point. Masa aku naik atu of-course lah aku nervous. Aku bagi salam and, get this, said "Selamat Petang!" HAHA, it was morning wah! Apparently the audience ketawakan aku according to c Dino and Heng hahahahaha.. Baik jua aku inda sadar, kalau inda hancur berderai tu ucapanku hahahhaa... Sekali lapas atu aku address the Menteri.. He was very resposive wah, iatah then aku rasa relax sikit. Lapas atu aku congratulate everybody. Masa ani I looked out for my friends amongst the audience so that aku sounds more genuine. Easiest to spot among all is of course, Dino with his head sticking out trying to take a clearer view of me hahahahahahah.. So, I pretty much dedicated that congratulatory part to any friends that I spotted and I actually smiled when I saw c Zudin. HAHAHA, cali yoo!

Then I moved to the main content of my speech. Its a terribly risky one cause it undoubtedly does sort of undermine my credibility as the representative of the award recipients. I won't tell you what it is, just wait for tomorrow's newspaper hahaha.. Honestly, when I wrote the speech, I was contemplating whether or not to change my main point. However, I figured, even I know that I am not the most deserving student to be chosen for the role and that its a point that I really want to point out to the younger generations. I mean, I did a mistake and I really really hope that they won't repeat the same mistake. So, in the end, I decided to go ahead with the speech as I believe (and I truly hope) that it will be worth it. So I went ahead and tried VERY hard to get it across.. Did I succeed? I dunno, ZUDIN COMMENT SINI! hahaha..

So after the speech, then terima anugerah and got another one sijil! haha, now thats 7 already! Remember, at the start of the holiday I was aiming for 8 :P.. Sekali masa ambil sijil, Pehin cakap "Dimana kau belajar becakap cematu atu lai? Bagus..." HAHAHA, I was so thankful masa ani. Then he proceeded to the usual questions like which unis and what course and what scholarship. TUrun and duduk sekajap pastu kana tarik and kana suruh makan with Menteri, Timbalan Menteri, Ketua Pengarah and Pengarah2 Emm-Ooo-Eee.. Gila yo, awkward wah! haha, sikittt ganya kami makan. And I noticed that the Menteri did not really communicate with me as much as the others. Perhaps he does not quite agree with my point, but hey its okay. Or maybe he's out of questions. There's not much you can ask about some one you do not know so I just talked with the Timbalan Menteri. Sekali aku lupa address diriku as Peramba wah dapan ia, tapi ia macam nada jua.. Takut ku pulang eh haha, tapi he told me one secret which shall be our secret forever hahahahahah.. Tapi ia ani cali lah..

Lapas makan, besalam-salaman and bermesra-mesra ahaha.. Setiap yang ku salam cakap "Tahniah ah ucapanmu ah" or something cematu lah. Hahaha, Alhamdulillah.. But you guys aren't really the targeted audience so.. hmm.. I can't wait to hear feedbacks from the pre-A-level students hahaha..

Pastu ikut c Zudin balik. Then tunggu C Yu Heng ambil kami dirumahnya. Pastu kami makan dimsum. Celebrate first gajiku yo! hahahah.. Then ke Giant membali barang-barang BBQ. Kami planned to use the $100 HSBC gift untuk cover all expenses. Sekali masa membayar over wah! hahaha, tepaksa th durang menambah. Aku ada bawa pulang duit labih, yang lebih dari mencukupi tapi since durang lain offered to tambah ku biarkan saja.. Inda jua ku rugi kan haha..

And the BBQ was a tremendous success! hahaha, tapi I am tired already.. Telampau banyak yang kan diceritakan pasal the BBQ so aku give up haha.. Ill leave the task to the others. Tapi ani paling ramai attendees lah! Aku, Zudin, Yu Heng, Solon, Ivy, Elaine, Bahzi, Deejah, Ajeerah, Inarah n BF, Liyana n BF, Lonnie with Amal, Khairiyah (obviously ahahha), Khairul and c Hanisah sekajap banarrr saja. If aku ada missed anyone, comment ah!

Any way, I LOVE TODAY! :) Alhamdulillah.....

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SARCASM :(

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BSP

Kerana si yamin suruh aku post experieences ku for the BSP assesment centre i will do so.(I will follow any suggestions from him as long as bukan yang nada-nada.) Summary nya, experiences ku sebiji, semacam, secocok yang si yamin blogkan sereatu. THE END. Hahahahaha. Nadawa.
It was a Friday when a certain Hafis Hafzan called me during maghrib. When he first called, he mentioned something about wanting to tell me something important but i accidentally lost grip of my home phone and hafis was no more. Luckily he was persistent and called for the second time and this time he got to tell me the true purpose of his call which was about BSP ASSESMENT CENTRE.(it was quite the surprise when he called for the second time as i was not too close as friends with him and ‘normal’ people would not even think twice to call a person who hung up on them)
On Tuesday, we were to go to Bukit Shahbandar at 2:00pm and wait for a vehicle of some sort to transport us to an apartment in which we were to stay for the night.We were suppose to bring two formal dresses for dinner in which we were to meet the accessors for the first time and for the assesment centre the following day. Tool such as soap, toothbrush, towel, casual cothes were also a must as they were not amongst the things prepared by BSP. We were also told that after finishing the assesment centre, we would be transported back to Bukit Shahbandar. At that moment i was super duper excited as i have never been INVITED for a scholarship selection process before. I swore that the past this time i will be succesful unlike my MINDEF selection process last year in which i performed poorly and as i predicted, failed with flying colours.
After the phone call, i was called by the true BSP informer and i took into account of some of the things that i did not understand before. I also asked if YAMIN was one of the people to be invited for the assesment centre. After the call ended, i resumed my job of doing nothing as was doing exceptionally well when my brother called me that someone was on the phone for me. It was obviously yamin and he briefed me about his mischevous trick in which he stretched the truth and told BSP that he was considering taking CHEMICAL ENGINEERING. He also told me how the information giving person offered him to let two people stay in the same room if he/yamin was afraid. That was obviously a joke which i played along to as i have always did with my life. NADAWAH. Tantulah ku ketawa sal ia tarus-tarus cakap cematu.
On Tuesday afternoon we gathered at Bukit Shahbanndar. I came second ahead of the rest there and i was surprised that the driver who was told to send us was about an hour early. I waited for everyone to come and to my surprise i knew all of them and ‘them’ are Yamin, Hafis, Adibah, Yusatikah, akuuuu. And we were off to BSP and on the way we picked up a girl from SMSO(i do not know what this abbreviation means) and her name was Candy. Though her name represents the sweetest creation that man has made, to me she is not like what candy is all about as she always put on a sour face. Though i think it was because she does not know anyone of us it is not wrong to smile at times. Ane memenjang marung mukanya. Tapi ane perasaan ku lah and i do not expect other people to share my opinion and aku lupa mention another fact mengapa tanggapan ku arah ia ane tatap cemani which is because aku inda berkesempatan meluangkan masa bercakap sama ia. Si yamin ada kesempatan ane sal yamin, dibah and candy was the last group untuk do in-tray and proposal sa time makan and sesi duduk-duduk deorang dapat berceritalah.
Sudah sampai di sana, kami ambil kunci bilik kami and selepas bersusah payah menitis air mata, peluh dan darah akhirnya kami sampai ke bilik kami and ini adalah kerana urang yang sangat baik membagi tau kami dimana bilik kami atu yang mukanya cam cina tapi cakap melayu cam urang brunei tapi mengakun mukanya cam phillipine. Sudah sampai kami pun strip down and pakai baju rumah and seluar pendek, kami buat macam rumah sendirilah...astro nya astro max and it was the first time i heard of that kind sal aku ane bak kata pepatah katak dibawah tempurung. Satu yang kami bertiga lelaki had in common was the unevitable, important and life/death situation was that we were HUNGRY. Dinner with the assessors ws to be held at 7.00pm and it was about 3 hours to go. Luckily i briught enough drinks for everyone even if it only shut our mouths for a few minutes before curses were thrown at each other. The apartment was WOW...it had 8 rooms, a living room, a dinner table, ASTRO MAX, coat hanger, kitchen, INDIVIDUAL TOILETS, INDIVIDUAL AIR CONDITIONING, iron table plus the iron, MICROWAVE, the silverwares were arranged in such a way that it looked FANCY. To put it short the accomodation was perfect. Period.
We then met 3 students from SMSA which was another unknown school to me and the students representing SMSA was Syu’aib, younger brother of Ayyub who is one of the SULTAN SCHOLAR RECIPIENTS, Khalaf a nice person who is extreamly friendly and Yeong my saviour for which the reasons why i called him my saviour will be explained later. We ate at 8:30 WHICH WAS OVER AN HOUR PAST THE SUPPOSED DINNER TIME and all of us ate like wild animals by the time we were allowed to eat. I did not remember what we ate but what i did remember was the fact that each and every dudes plates were full of food(FOF for short) kerana ane bukan bulan puasa so kami ikut lah geng kami yang bernama hawa nafsu. Then aku, yamin and hafis kana bawa oleh kaka si yamin sal si yamin dari patang dah mengadu kelaparan rah kakanya, we bought unnecessary stuffs for example milo sekutak, popcorn yang inda berasa, kiddy food yang si kumin bali, kerupuk, a masam tasting food yang si yamin teseliur akan tapi in the end jadi makanan samut. Terima kasih kerana melanja kami...bahagia tidur ku malam atu unlike yamin and hafis. Yamin punya alasan was katilnya bebau, si hafis antah mengapa ke dorm bini2 ta pulang main card. Aku cam biasa bernafas melalui mulut so hidungku off lah and my sense of smell was switched to off, iatah aku tidur mati malam atu not to mention katilnya rasanya macam awan.
The next day was the BIG DAY. We started with group discussion and my team consists of aku, Yeong and Yusatikah(AYY team). Each of us were HOD of different departments of a well known hospital famous for its excellent services. The scenario was that the hospital was given a $350,000 dollars budget in which we the team members were to convince each other why the equimpments that we were supposedly considering to buy was useful and at the end agreeing at the best possible outcome to maximise the use of the given budget and it was at this exercise that yeong excelled the most(from my point of view) as he was the one who invited me and yus to talk, give the most convincing of reasons why his equipment was to be bought and most importantly continue talking in moments where me and yus were out of ideas and were about to give up to the silence. I did participate a bit here and there though so i gave the exercise a rating of 3/5 based on my performance while yeong was 5/5 and yus a bit low 2/5. In the end we decided to buy the cardiovascular monitor of yeong and hydrotheraphy pool by myself as it was both of us who gave the most convincing of reasons at that time.
Next was in-tray which was labelled as the hardest by the past sucessful BSP scholars. I realised at this point the true reason why i even came to the assesment centre which way to atone for my mistakes of failing the mindef selection process; the last mindef selection process indeed traumatised me as i keep repeating the points during the process which i had performed my worst and as you know i am an ‘over-exageratting’ person and usually even normal mistakes seems bigger and more treacherous which was why it was important for me to do it right for the BSP selection process. During the BSP thing i even shared my experiences to the acessors for reasons that even i am not sure of. The in-tray part went very well only because the chinese acessor kept repeating and giving me clues for me to cover my answers with great detail and thus make my performance better and also the reason why i rated my performance for the exercise 4/5. The proposal question that i chose was about improvements that Brunei should implement to face future floodings. During the 45 minutes preperation time, i had numerous good ideas and so i did exceptionally well in presenting my ideas but it was the question and answer session that i did not enjoy the most. The acessor who looked bruneian but spoke british-english but named collin ibrahim asked plenty of confusing questions and since i strongly believed that my brain was over exhausted from brain storming for ideas since eary morning the answers i gave him were rather inadequate to an extent that i had to make him repeat his questions, use his replied to make the same point and take a number of short peeks into the improvement suggestion ideas that i had wrote. I rated myself 3/5 for the exercise.
In the end we were briefed of our performance and my weakness incudes that i spoke too quickly which i believe was from the group discussion since i was quite nervous at that time, i should try to involve/provoke/bring other quite people to also talk also from group discussion, i should alos try to think of the people when suggesting ideas for improvements which was definately from the proposal. The rest of my weakness i forgot because i tried to reminence the exact point where my weakness shows everytime each weakness was told and so i couldn’t remember where i did that weakness so i did not hear what the rest of my weakness was. My strengths was i had good ideas, i gave good convincing reasons which i assumed was from group discussion, i was creative in which i drew what my ideas were for the proposal. The rest i forgot as i was exhausted that i forgot how to listen properly.
Si yamin ku tanya cam nada ganya bunyinya for eg strengths yang ia membagi tau which was ideanya innovative. Atu ganya wa then time BCTA banyak tia bagitau nya. Panat banar anak atu. Hahahahaha. So this is the end of this post. Kami balik on patang Wednesday lapas abis assesment centre and on Friday kana call. Ia tanya dulu ‘if kau dapat mindef sama BSP mana satu kau mau?’ supaya nyaman hatinya aku cakap BSP and only then aku kana bagitau that aku pass assesment centre. Then two days ago kana telefon aku uleh BSP 3 kali. First hilang connection, second pun sama jua hilang connection sal time atu aku keraja rah bank and bilik atu nada service: akhirnya ia pun sampai membagitau aku if aku mau BSP or mindef for the second time. Time atu aku un nda tau mana satu kan ku pilih tapi at this time aku rasa kalau aku pass mindef selection process, aku ambil mindef tapi if aku nda dapat mindef then aku ambil BSP. Hopefully lurus decision ku ane. Amin. Amin. Amin. Min mun kau ada suggestion bek ta kau bagi tau aju esuk tome abseilling ah. So aku habis dah benda kan ku cakap. THE END.

First time memblog. hehehehe. iski ku ne.

EXPERIENCE KU YANG DETAIL UNTUK BCTA.(mun ia buring buleh dikatakan spam ne)
Since aku nada keraja(ada pulang) aku kan mencubalah memblog ane. Ane si Dino.

BCTA fasa dua is all about proper kawat training for the national day and since me and yamin plus friends joined BCTA under the title belia, we had to train for 3 weeks lead by the tentera udara men. Training was hottttt but fun. Lawa wah if kami semua bekawat and rata cara tane bejalan. Iski ku time atu. Track suit then kana bagi arah kami warna hijau muda. Lawa pulang warnanya tapi saiz basar. Semua urang nda ngam saiznya. Yang badannya kurus karing dapat L. Tapi syukurlah sal at that time aku dapat dua dah baju free sal aku ikut fasa satu from which aku kana bagi tracksuit warna merah mebara.
22 aribulan ialah tarikh start camping luar rumah for belia yang ikut fasa 3. Macam2 ku bawa untuk seminggu camping including bantal(and bau nya yang menyenangkan), sependet(6 or 7 pasang), sleeping beg, baju and seluar sports dan sebagainya. On that day hanya ada satu perkataan yang buleh mendescribe suasana hari atu. Chaos. Solon kali punya pasal bah. Firstly aku ke sekulah sama c heng kononnya kan ngantar hecas. Tapiiiii salah hecas kami. Then ngambil kawanku c pijul dari rumahnya and vroom tarus ke perkampungan sukan. Thank You heng and congrats dapat kraja.
That day bersambung dengan kedatangan urang2 dari Kuala Belait, Temburong and Tutong. Aher deorang datang ah. Reporting time pukul 9 deorang datang kul 1030. Janji melayu tah banar. Then briefing. The briefing which i totally forgot about was completely and utterly useless. Period. Sal alum jua kami dapat bilik and simpan barang kami. Kami then had lunch and sembahyang zohor ramai2. Pastu malangnya briefing lagi pi at atleast yang ane siuk. Kami kana bagi ceramah uleh pakar namanya cikgu haji(nda salah kulah ia haji) Aliyusri. Ceramah nya personally aku rasa sangat berguna. Macam2 info dari experiencenya yang ia pakai untuk menyampaikan ceramahnya. I like toh. Nama title motivational talknya ‘NEGARA KU’. It was excellent sampai aku nda terasa wah 2 and a half hours ia beceramah.
Only then kami kana bagi kunci. Kami kana bagi like 15 mins untuk siap masuk bilik, mandi, pakai baju cara melayu and off we went to SOAS mosque to do our maghrib prayers and membaca doa kesyukuran sempena hari kebangsaan. It was crazy deorang punya time limit ah. Yang nada-nada wah. Pi at least aku dapat masuk ke masjid SOAS which was my first time. Urang Brunei apakan aku ane. Tsk tsk tsk. Selesai sembahyang from which aku first time becakap sama c Haji Zul kawan c yamin yang sering ia panggil aku by, kami balik ke perkampungan sukan and tarus tukar baju sal kan buat last minute kawat atas arahan jawatan kuasa tinggi sal kawat kami pada hari sabtu sebelumnya nda memuaskan hati. Alhamdullillah malam atu lawa sangat sangat kawat kami. Bangga ku malam atu. Then makan malam kul 10 and then ke bilik.
Oh yeah, aku lupa introduce character yang memainkan peranan penting daam BCTA ane. Namanya ashraff pi kana panggil ‘wan’ and ia sukarelawan untuk mengjaga kami for national day only. Hari atu kami dah puas kana teriaki uleh ia untuk mengambil kunci bilik, time briefing in which kami kana suruh diam balik2. Malam atu aku bagas mandi and kan tetidur udah. Bilik ku aku share sama David(Tutong), Jimy(Tutong), Yusof(KB), Alvin(KB) and Shahrin(KB) yang bernombor 201. Kan tidur dah kami then ada tia ia beteriak-teriak suruh buka kunci pintu kami ah. Gila, mental wa kawan2 ku ah. Pastu cam nada gi tu tanyanya or should i say teriakinya ”SUDAH KAMU TIDUR?” “BANAR KA INDA TIDUR ANE?”. Aku lupa mention yang eventhough ia lelaki, ulah nya lembut sikit. Sorry wan if kau tebaca ane even if chances kau tebaca blog ane one in a million. Iatah cuba kamu bayangkan kana kacau leh Pundan time kau kan tidur bagas seharian buat activiti. Gila. Aku diam2 pulang tapi kawan2 ku atu bah abis deorang memaki hamun c wan. Semua kali mengikut gaya P-nya supaya nyaman hati deorang. Ketawa ku mendangar impersonation deorang atu. In fact, kedengaran wah semua lelaki arah flat atu memaki hamun, menghina, mengucap and mempersendakan ia. Pi akhirnya tidur aku jua...even if esuk paginya kul 4 kana teriaki lagi sekali uleh si wan untuk bangun. And aku lupa mention aku tidur pukul 1 dimalamnya.
23 February 2010
Bangun pagi tarus mandi tapi inda pakai sabun. Mangapa kamu tanya? Salllll tinggal wa sabun. Antah cemana aku tetinggal sabun. So ertinya malam sebelumnya and pagi atu aku mandi nda besabun. Baik jua nada badas and lain2 fungi rah badanku ane. Kami pun then memakai tracksuit hijau plus seluarnya plus gloves plus tupinya and berangkat ke surau lu untuk sembahyang subuh. Nda ramai lah yang ikut sal nda ‘fit’ aku assume lah, meaning alum bangun dari tidur rohani deorang even if badan dah bergerak ke surau. Selesai sembahyang and breakfast, kami pun berangkat ke yayasan. That day hujan so semua urang gembira sangat sangat. Persembahan kawat kami pun sangat sangat lawa sampai kana bagi standing ovation(lurus ka ejaannya ah?). Abis kami bekawat, kami pun balik kononnya kan sambung tidur buttttt c wan sama ajk2 yang inda berperikemanusiaan(over) menyuruh kami ke dewan untuk briefing. Kami pun kana tempatkan ke daerah yang patutnya kami aga. Yang ke Tutong lelakinya Aku(BM), Yamin(BM), Amin the ketua kampong(BM), Zulkhairi(kawan yamin) aka ustaz(BM), zulfakry aka aji(Temburong), Dzul(BM), Irfan(Temburong), Rushdidi(Temburong), Hadi aka meme(BM), Hamdillah(BM), Yussof(KB), Sarwin(BM), Azizan(KB), Charles(KB), Azmierul(KB), Majid(KB), Nicholas(KB), Bob(BM), Uping(KB), Faisal(BM), Danial(BM), Faiz aka bilal(BM) and Edmond(KB).
Patang 23/02/2010
Kami sampai ke ‘resthouse’ kami which was a one storeyed house. Kami mengampaikan beg dalam rumah and then tarus chow ke dewan kemasyarakatan. Sana tejumpa kami bini-bini belia yang kana hantar ke Tutong sama kami. 12 urang ganya and aku lupa nama some of them sal deorang sangat pendiam and pasat deorang blend in rah backgroung sampai aku nda sadar deorang ada di sana. Possibly aku teignore deorang sal ada dah dangan ku becerita which includes Yamin, Zul, Faisal, Danial, Faiz and Amin. Anilah urang2 yang ku rasa aku paling banyak cakap sama. So moral paragraph ane ialah aku nda tau nama semua kontingen belia bini-bini yang ke tutong. Sorry. Hehehehe
Patang atu kami belatih kawat dalam keadaan yang sangat panas. Maklum, hari sudah petang. Basically sama lah jua kawat ane sama kawat for hari kebangsaan tapi mesti cakap ‘up’ saja. Lapas atu kami makan rah pusat Belia where aku jadi dinner lady (since ia malam) iaitu aku di tugaskan membagi nasi. Urang lain incharge membagi ayam and so on. Yang dapat ku pelajari malam atu ialah bini2nya sekubit ganya nasi deorang. Iatah time aku membagi nasi rah deorang balik2 ku bising lah mananya deorang ‘cukup tu wah?’ or ‘bediet kau ka?’. Si yamin tau tu mengapa kalilah and i think ia ada something to do with kalau makan nasi bagi jubur basar. Luruska tu?

Then balik tarus ku mandi. Entah mengapa aku mau mandi awal tapi baik jua lah. Wait. Ahh. Now i remember. Sebelum kami ke Tutong mama ku ada membagi sabun. Hahahahaha. Iatah aku begagas kan mandi. Alhamdulillah segar jua rasa dan bau badan ku. Malam atu kami tidur rah ruang tamu pasal di bilik kami nada airconditioner. Kami angkat semua katil yang ada and ampaikan rah bilik tamu. Yang tidur di sana aku, amin, paiz, aji, uping, faisal, ustaz zul, yamin and danial. Ada pulang kelompok lain yang tidur rah bilik tamu atu tami kami inda betamu at first sal alum kenal iaitu urang2 belait si charles, nicholas, majid, azmierul sama edmond. Yang lain tidur rah bilik yang ada katil sendirilah.batah kami mencuba kan tidur tapi...ndamau. Since tidur nda mau so kami resort to beulah lah and mengacau urang for eg kacau si yamin by balik2 panggil namanya sampai ia manjawab(more likely menyumpah), kacau si ustaz pasal si hanim which was gf nya(handal jua imam2 sekarang ane...pandai tia udah begf), kacau ustaz pasal bantal buruknya( siuk mengacau malam atu), mendangar si amin iaitu ketua kami mengacau si Uping yang basar sikit badannya and lemah-lembut sikit. Siuk pulang mendangar si Amin mengacau si uping tapi yang inda siuknya ialah melimpang between si amin and si uping. Kalau si amin mangacau, si uping ane kan mengampas si amin balik. Dalam lebih kurang 3 occasion kepalaku yang kana ampas sal si uping malas bediri so ia ampas ja kami dua. Inda pulang sakit ia mengampas tapi ia mengampas was macam ia menstroke muamu. Caranya menstroke muka lagi lembut. Naik segala buluku. Iatah ku pindah malam atu. Akhirnya barutah ku dapat tidur. Tapi conclusion malam atu ialah si uping atu ‘P’ macam si wan and siuk lah di kacau.
Aku lupa mention yang kami kana suruh hafal satu lagu patriotik. Ane liriknya.
Disini kami dilahirkan
Disini kami di besarkah.
Tanah air ku makmur aman
Kurnia dari Tuhan

Taat setia janji kita
Berdaulat raja dan ugama
Segera membangun maju jaya
Budaya nusa bangsa

Pancaroba....kita gempur
Musuh bangsa....kita tempur
Biar jasad bertabur
Berjuang jangan mundur
Namamu kian masyhur

Sumbangkat bakti kita semua
Bersatu padu penuh setia
Tanah air ku makmur jaya
Kekal selamanya.

Atu saja yang ku ingat. Lurus ka min? Kami kana bagi less than 24hours untuk hafal lagu atu. So outcomenya pada 24/02/2010 hancurlah.
24/02/2010
Kami berkawat dalam keadaan hujan(alhamdulillah) and time nyanyi ckp ajk kami menyanyi macam untuk diri sendiri saja. Infact aku admit yang aku lupa wah lirik ah. Padahal aku jua yang dimalam majal menyanyi saja sampai kana sumpah leh si yamin.(aku nda tau mengapa ia menyumpah ganya kerajanya. Hahaha)
Pas siap kawat rah dewan, kawat lagi rah pekan Tutong and lapas siap kami kana antar ke pantai untuk bersedia kan kawat lagi. Kami kana bagi makan and ada satu kueh atu nyaman wah. And manis. Si yamin pun cakap nyaman and then malangnya ia tambah lagi ‘nyaman pulang tapi bagi jubur basar’. Semua makanan ka membagi jubur basar? Iatah kejadian punggung ku ne? Mati eh. Kami sampat mainkan si zul sal everytime makanan makuk mulutnya batah ia mengunyah. Iatah ku kira kan and since hari atu kami mainkan ia lah.
Then bekawat lagi dari pantai sampai ke masjid penanjong. Kawat kami ikut lagu barney. Bunyinya cemani. Kri nana kri. Kri nan kri. Kri nan kri nan kri nan kri. La la la la la la la la la la laaaaa. Kri nan kri nan kri nan kri. Dalam irama lagu barney lah ah. Urang yang mengajar kami kawat malu wah, iatah everytime kami melintas sekulah kami kana suruh nyanyi lagu patriotik supaya hilang malunya. But then time kami menyanyi lagu patriotik atu ada ku tedangar kanak2 skulah cakap ‘kesian jua kamu ane eh’. Tau ya yang kami inda ikhlas menyanyi lagu ah. Patangnya kami kana bagi ceramah leh haji jumat iaitu ketua kampung Penenjung. Presentationnya macam report wah. Ia ex cigu so cara ia beceramah pun macam mangajar ie balik2 ia merepeat and tanya if paham or inda. Buring. Then ketua PERDA membagi ceramah. Bulehlah daripada haji jumat atu. Hahaha. Balik rumah kami besiap kan sembahyang + bedikir but sebelum kami jalan ada tia parents ku. Aku pun balik. Rupanya malam atu deorang kana ceramah 3 jam. Untunglah aku balik.
25/02/2010
Dah siap test time pagi dari pukul 8.30-12.00. Balik rumah lipat baju ku and yamin. Si yamin bekirim mencuci bajunya so aku cucilah dimalam. Alasannya spendetnya tinggal satu ja and ia bawa empat ja untuk seminggu camping. Panat ta banar. Pi nda apa2 lah. Aku kan jalan ke Tutong pi mama ku suruh singgah lu sal sepupu sekali ku meninggal. Barat tarus hatiku kan sambung camping. Bek jua ada alasan kukuh iaitu baju si yamin. Patang aku sampai pukul 4.00pm ++ and rupanya aku miss aktivity games time pagi and patang. Deorang siap dah menolong mengutip sampah rah kawasan pantai and mengemas kawasan rumah seorang penghuni kawasan penenjong. Handal deorang atu. Malam kami bedikir. Happy ku time atu sal sampai jua hajat ku kan bedikir. Berapa tahun dah ku inda ikut bedikir. Siuklah malam atu sampai sarut suara ku. Ada gi urang hal ehwal masjid mengajar kami lah sikit irama lama time bedikir. And also kami tejumpa cikgu Saiful yang pernah menjaga kami time PRYNSA. Ia gtau yang ane ia dah ada anak seorang and ia keraja rah BSP. MIN, OMEN TU MIN UNTUK MENGAMBIL BSP. Hahahahaha.
Kami mengantuk and suara sorang2 macam baru puberty meaning karau. Kana bawa tah kami untuk memecah ais yakni sesi suai kenal. Lurus ka inda tu apa yang ku buat atu. Siuk jualah time malam atu. Ada jua yang menangis, ada yang berani confess besigup, ada yang komplen sal jamban nda be air, si uping menangis lah pi lupa ku pasal apa and mostly kenal lebih baik sikit lah urang2 yang jarang becakap. Then kami ketandas and by the time masuk balik ke bilik perkumpulan, ada tia sesi peluk memeluk. Antah nda ku tau mengapa pi ok jua lah sal aku pun join saja tia. And the thing is at that moment terasa tah ku yang sorang2 inda lagi ambung and diam2. Semua macam friendlly. Yang mukanya ganas pun masih stay ganas pi makin becakap lah. Bini2nya nda ku tau mengapa deorang menengis. Yang ku ingat si yamin mana ikut tu time kami hugging atu. Di luar ya. And on the way balik laju ia bejalan. Aku assume ia anti social sama grumpy lah malam atu. Pi esuknya ok tia ia.
Malam atu kami jalan kaki ke resthouse. Halfway there belari tia si Yussof. Takajut kami. Kami buring and batah dah inda belari so kami pun ikut. Sampai rumah barutah ku kana bagitau yang si Yussof lari sal ia ‘tenampak’. Paham ka? Mun nda paham usahakanlah sendiri. Pi malam atu aku high so aku nda kisah lah pasal hal-hal cematu. Arah rest house atu kami pun start main game. Nda ku tau namanya game atu tapi siuk. Thank you AJK Hilmi sal mengajar kami game atu. Walaupun ia mula-mula serious saja mukanya rupanya very cool and sporting. Kami manipulate game suci atu dengan bertarus makanan yang deorang manangkan tadi ie gula-gula, coklat and roti. Game ane kana isytihar halal uleh ustaz kami sendiri and ia pun main malam atu. Main pointnya siuk lah malam atu. Mula-mula manang basar wah imamnya, nyaman ketawanya. Keluar tanduk nya sepasang and ekor. Tapi pas ia kalah, kembali tia ke jalan yang betul. Hahahahaha. Then aku ngalih so kami rah katil and aku ada jua lah kacau si yamin. Ada ya menjawab pi macam menyumpah jualah bunyinya. Aku ketawa ja. Siuk wah sama kawan ane. Then inda lama keluar si amin and ia pun minta toong buat speechnya untuk majlis penutup pagi karang. Baik jua ada AJK Hilmi sal ia born-leader wah. Dari damit dah ia jadi ketua macam-macam perbadanan including MP. So ia ja yang truly menolong si amin, aku sama ustaz zul macam berpura-pura jadi useful sajalah untill suddenly mataku tetutup and aku tertidur kerana mendangar melodi tidak indah dengkuran si uping. Hahahahaha.

26/02/2010
Last day rah Tutong and then kami ke games village sampai 28th. Pagi atu semua bangun aher sebab kami tidur start kul 3 am. Bangun pagi, cuci muka, barus gigi and kami off ke masjid penanjong untuk merasmikan hari terakhir kami di Tutong. Aku realise yang aku start day becakap sama urang2 yang aku mula2 inda biasa dengan. Siuk lah deorang atu banarnya. Lapas abis kami balik and mandi untuk sembahyang jumaat. Seperti biasa time khutbah kami tidur except aku yamin and ustaz zul. Kuat iman kami. (amin). Then kami balik ke Games village.
Panjang post ku ane... tapi its only because aku masih lagi terasa wah what i felt during those times sampai excited ku as aku memberitau every detail yang ku ingat. It soothes my soul. Apakan tu. Then time belia yang bergerak ke KB, Temburong and BM alum sampai kami pun belatih cheers. Firstly aku pikir cheers ane mengarut and nonsense wa. Then malam tiba lapas kami makan and kami buat cheer off. Cheer kami rugged and very strong tapi bini2nya mau labih2 wa (i have to say). Deorang mau cheer kami precise and very accurate. Then lapas KB membalas kami dengan cheers bertalu-talu barutah semangat kompetetive kami keluar. Unique giler wa cheers deorang. Ada pancing cheer and goyang cheer at first. Pastu macam2 keluar macam star wars cheer and yang paling berani sekali ashraff cheer where deorang mimic secara open gaya lemah-lembut si wan untuk menyuruh diam. Cali berabis sampai si wan pun ketawa ayu wah.
Patang atu secara tiba2 si yamin hilang sal ia balik. Not actually ia hilang tapi kami tetinggalkan ia sal kami kan masuk bilik. Hehehe. Sori min ah. Then barutah ku terasa lah si yamin nada sal ada tia masa where aku inda becakap sama urang and biasanya aku cakap sama ia sal ia cam always open to talk to. Tapi since aku bukan emo aku blend lah sama urang KB and rupanya deorang baik2 lah eventhough muka deorang ganas2 and bibir lagi hitam sal besigup saja and deorang baru year 9 which is form 3. Gila deorang atu tapi baik2 hati deorang lah(at least arah ku).
27/02/2010
Kami ikut maulud nabi tapi aku ikut yang special sikit which is belia yang kana stationed belakang His Royal Highness. Kami banarnya kana suruh melakat belakang Sultan supaya urang ramai inda masuk sukahati pi directly lapas keluar padang SOAS kana serang wa spot kami ah. The whole way kami either power walk or jog supaya te keep up sama Sultan. Lapas abis semua kami mandi paluh wa. Baju lagi cara melayu so melakat lah rah badan menampakkan segala lamak-lamak and musel-musel kami. Patang kami menyanyi. Inda cool sal suaraku karau berabis.
Malam atu bejanji kan tidur rah bilik si Amin sal 3 hari beturut-turut dah tidur sama-sama. Then kami main ‘game’ kami. Siuk and anitah the reason mengapa suara ku alum baik sampai hari ane i assume. Iatah aku bising sampai satang wa AJK menyurh kami diam sal semua urang complain. Hahahahaha. Bangga ku time atu tapi kedapatan lah aku yang bising the most sal time aku eksen suruh deorang damitkan suara, suara ku ganya yang karau kan mati. Aku balik ke bilik and tidur.
28/02/2010
Kami perform untuk majlis penutup. The end. Ngalih dah ku menaip. Min, panjang ah post ku. Tapi siuk lah. At least sini memori-memori ku akan sentiasa terpahat and di ingati. Aku lagi pelupa so aku rasa lain kali baik tah aku buat blog eventhough menaip ane memakan banyak masa sal aku mau every detail yang aku rasa/ingat untuk ada.
Summary
• Aku jumpa kambar ku. Aku inda perasaan pulang yang muka kami sama tapi urang lain cakap cematu so aku layan saja.
• Aku naik pickup untuk kali ke dua. First was time mengantar coffin niniku and ia untuk dikuburkan.
• Aku mandi inda besabun untuk sehari
• Aku makan 6 meals a day
• Aku becakap sama semua guys which is biasa dah.
• aku tidur akhir memanjang
• aku cuci baju pakai tangan. Oh wait, bukan baju...sependet
• aku masuk masjid SOAS
• aku bedikir
• aku jumpa sir saiful
• aku belajar irama dikir lama
• aku dapat adik2, abang2 and kaka2 angkat baru.
The End

What a month! :D

I am HOME! Hohoho, after 5-days (actually it was supposed to be a week, but more on that later) of pure fun and sometimes hell, BCTA is nearly over, save for the closing ceremony tomorrow. For those of you who dont know, BCTA stands for Belia Cinta Tanah Air. Its a programme introduced by our very own Pusat Belia dan Sukan to expose the youth to "Bruneian" activities and morale.

Since I am not feeling well right now and all that I have been doing this whole day is sleep, I am going to write my experiences during the programme. When I first joined BCTA, we were briefed on the two phases of the programme.

First phase involved the National Day celebration at Padang SOAS. So, all of us have to undergo 3-weeks training for the celebration. Inda pulang tiap hari kami practice, almost every other day lah, but still it was very very tiring.. Fortunately, Zudin and two other good friends of mine from MD also signed up for this event so the trainings were not as boring as I thought it would be. Overtime, I get to know more people and started to talk to random people (including Blogger J's Ex ;), yes, he signed up too, hahaha ) After all the trainings, the actual event came. The day before the celebrations, we were asked to sleep at this place called Games Village. The weird thing is, it is called Perkampungan Sukan in Malay. haha..

So there, we have to sleep in groups with people around Brunei from all the 4 districts. My room was room 307, on the third floor which I shared with Didi(Temburong), Salihin(Tutong) and two other guys from KB. The non-KBians were OK, we mind our own business but the same cannot be said for the KB people. They were, uhmm, weird? haha.. Yes, at least to me. You know what they did the first night? Well, all of us got to the hostel around 12 midnight after trainings and prayers at SOAS mosque. Obviously, we were all tired and sleepy so most people went to their rooms to shower and then sleep. The KB-ians, weirdly enough, decided instead to gather in MY/our room and..... drink some alcoholic drinks that they brought from home. As if that was not enough, they then smoke. Haha, what a luck. Then, one of our supervisors came and they all went chaotic. Waking me up in the process. Shesshh, what a bunch of morons. HAHAHA, actually, after getting to know some of the during the later phase, they were quite ok lah, and they are also non-muslim, which explains a lot of things.

The national day came, we were asked to be prepared at 3.30, then have our Subuh prayer together and then zoomed to Bandar. The actual event was a breeze, except for some minor imperfections. The trainings were worth it, no doubt about that.

Then comes the last phase, we were randomly selected to be sent to districts other than ours. Me, Zudin and one of my friends from MD were chosen to be sent to Tutong! haha, what a luck. It was very fortunate for me though, as without them, I don't think I would enjoy the experience as much as I did.

Day 1: The participants being sent to Tutong were brought to this small rest house with 3 bedrooms and 3 toilets. Within each room there are 2 queen-sized beds. Imagine this; there were 22 of us boys and we have to share the same house. hahaha. So, Me, zudin and my friend Zul, decided to sleep in the living room. Actually, Zudin got his own room but he decided to join me and Zul. I have no idea why.. But I am glad he did cause otherwise I would not have anyone to talk to during the night. Zul, as i know him, is never a talkative person hahaha.. The first day, we have to go through some more trainings for an opening event the next day. It was very tiring.. Imagine having to train after doing the National Day celebrations. Then the night came and I get to know almost everybody else. They were great people and I was pretty sure that the coming days will be full of fun.

Day 2: We have to wake up at 3.30 to get ready for Subuh prayer at the mosque. It was then that we discovered a MAJOR problem, the water pressure is terribly low. So either we all have to use the bathroom one by one or we would have to use the pipes outside on the ground floor. Since time is very limited, most opted to shower downstairs. Me on the other hand, decided to wait until most people are ready and then use the bathroom. It was a right decision as I get to enjoy my shower in private hahaha, although it was very brief (less than 5 mins). After the Subuh prayers, we then attend the opening ceremony for Tutong BCTA. It rained, we have to be-kawat in the rain and stand for like almost 15mins. As if that was not enough, we then have to "kawat" some more going around Pekan Tutong. Then, we went to Penanjong Camp and again kawat from the beach to the mosque. It was approximately a 2KM journey. Very tiring but we had fun. We went back to the hostel around 5 and then at 6 we went to the mosque. There, we were forced to lead this one type of dikir. Most of us (including me) were pretty much clueless hahaha.. We got home around 11.

Day 3: After the usual Subuh prayer, we visited the Penanjong mosque for a talk on the history of Kampong Penanjong. I still cannot believe how utterly USELESS this talk was. Seriously, who cares about the history of somebody elses village? I dont, haha.. The speaker was the Ketua Kampong himself. He was very charismatic, he speaks slowly and clearly. Unfortunately, the talk was really really boring. The presentation slides were full of WORDS with just one or two pictures, and according to my memory there were about 15 slides altogether. Pure torture. hahaha.. At night there was a talk by 3-tokohs who have received some sort of award by his Majesty. It was a very longggggggg talk and ended at 1100PM. We got home at 1130. When we arrived at our house, ada tia kana announced that we have to go to Pusat Belia for something secret. CRAP/SHOOT was my exact thought that moment. We were sleepy as hell and the AJK decided to make a suprise. Great. Turned out, it was an unofficial ice breaking ceremony. I didn't enjoy this part a bit cause my contact lens were getting dry and I can barely see a thing. We were done at 1230 and since our buses were gone, we have to walk home. Aduhh, sedihh.. Baik jua the guys who walked with me yang siuk2, ada jua kan dicakap2kan walaupun aku inda kenal durang hahahah.. That subuh, I was supposed to help Zudin and Zul compose a speech for our leader, Amin, for the closing ceremony on the next day. But, I was very tired and selfishly decided to sleep instead. I am sure that some people were pissed at me for this haha.. But, I cannot stand having to sleep for such a short time. Usually, I get to sleep for 12 hours straight, now I only get to sleep for 4 hours AT MOST. Of course, I was cranky haha.. Around 2AM, I woke up to the sound of Zudin talking and told him to shut up. hahahaha, Sorry Dino... Apparently they had the most fun that night. HOnestly, i don't feel left out cause to me, I would rather sleep than spend time with people who you would only be in contact with for the next few days hahahaha..

Day 4: I woke up around 6 and to my suprise, I was the first one to be awake that day! hahahaha, happily I went to the toilet quietly and took my time enjoying the abundance of water. When I was done, it was nearly 7! hahahahahaha, we were asked to be ready at 730. So, I woke Zul up and left the task of waking up the rest to him hahahaha... It was chaotic, but at least I get to actually shower :D.. Yes, I know.. pretty selfish of me.. Baik jua durang inda tau hahahah.. Lapas atu we went to the mosque for the closing ceremony. Then, there is this closing ceremony for Fasa III. It was OK, at least we dont have to do anything wawawa... Then sembahyang Jumaat and back to the house. Then baruth arah Game's Village. Aku balik kerumah pasal abgku betunang the next day. Balik, tarus ku mandi and bagi baju2 untuk disasah, then tidur until the next afternoon. Sudah ku bangun ramai udah urang datang hhahaha..

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2/28: Today was the actual closing date for BCTA 2010. Yes, you guessed it. Mestilah ada crying session. Ughhh. Zudin cried. The girls cried and so did the boys. I can't fathom why they cried tho, do they really care that much about each other? I have no idea. I mean baru jua seminggu kenal sudah tia cani.. Apa lagi setaun ni haha.. No, I did not cry. Entah ah, maybe pasal aku didn't really get to know them well. If there is any award for the least attentive participant maybe aku kali dapat haha.. Cause seriously, aku inda berapa mix with them lah and I dunno why. They were great people and I am sure that it is totally my loss. Ganya I don't see the point bah, lapas ani inda jua bejumpa2 ni. Bahapath kan rapat2 haha.. Well, thats my view anyway. Throughout the programme, I talked the most to (in descending order) Zul, Faisal, Zudin, Faiz and yang lain atu maybe less than 15mins kali hahahahahaha.. I know, gila bitchy aku ah. I am sorry for that, tapi its too late sudah kan. Mudahan durang semua inda banci, amin.. hahahaha

End of BCTA. Chapter Closed.

Now, I want to share about the BSP Assessment Center lagi haha.. I know.. Panjang kan postku ani. Biartia bah, sekali sekala. Lapas ani nada ku mengupdate lagi ni since sibuk buat business plan.

Awal2, kami kana suruh bekumpul arah parking bukit Shahbandar. Sekali udah ku kesana, I met Zudin and another familiar face. Rupanya its Yusatiqah, my ex-further maths partner wawawa. Lapas atu I met Dibah from PTEM, then datang Hafiz. C Hafiz ani aku kenal pasal I met him masa one of the BSP talks yang aku attend for fun hahaha.. Ia duduk sebalahku. So kirakan aku kenal semua lah.

After semua sudah masuk van, ke Tutong lagi tu pick one chinese gurl. Namanya Candy. Ia ani muanya serius,tapi sudah kenal OK jua rupanya. Cool lah jua.

Sudah kami sampai sana, checked in. Lapas atu we had some problems finding our room ahaha.. Imagine, 3 students with 3As on their A-level struggling to find bilik haha. bari malu wah kami ah, but durang atu jua. Lain2an arahannya sorang2. Sorang cakap left, sorang lagi cakap right. Sudah tejumpa, impressed kami tarus. Lawa lah apartmentnya! Ada Astro Max! The one yang can record, forward and rewind broadcast ah. Siuk, sakai ku tarus wawawa.

Then, after maghrib ada briefing. Pasal ia punya assessment process. Ia ada 3 stages:
1) Group Discussion.
2) In-Tray exercise
3) Proposal

Malas ku kan explain detailsnya sal at this stage aku pun inda berapa paham. So malam atu we get to know batch kami yang kana assess sama2. the boys ada aku, Zudin, Hafiz and 3 KB-ians; Syuaib, Khalaf and one chinese yang aku lupa namanya, haha.. sorry2.

That night, the muslim boys ramai2 sembayang arah Masjid sana so we get to know each other better lah. Iatah aku inda berapa kenal the chinese guy jua. The boys were very fine indeed, I wouldnt expect less considering their excellent results (Y). Fun and at least durang paham jokes ku wawawa. Kami dinner arah dewannya, lapas atu kakaku yang keraja diBelait bawa kami jalan2 haha. Satu pulang ganya kadai kami aga tu. I think it was Supasave kali. Siuk lah kadainya, barang2nya lain2an. nada di Brunei Muara. Kami apa th lagi shopping sakan th tarus. Sayang jua kana lanja atu :P
Lapas atu balik ke apartment, lepak2 sama Zudin and Hafiz liat cerita sambil becerita2. Siuk lah malam atu. Akhir tidur. Aku susah sikit kan tidur pasal tilamku bebau haha.. Inda ku tau bau apa, masam lagi tu. Akhirnya tepaksa jua ku tidur since sofanya diluar atu inda berapa nyaman wawawa..

The next day, the assessment day! Bangun kul 7 then tarus chow ke Assessment Center durang. Aku sebenarnya inda nervous wah masa ani pasal I really2 don't want the scholarship. Aku datang pun pasal I read ada this previous Sultan Scholar's Scholar blog cakapnya yang assessment ani beguna banar untuk interview SS. So, aku mau experience plus c Zudin pun minta dangani kan. Why not, aku inda jua rugi apa-apa.

So the first one was Group Discussion. Kami kana bagi2kan dalam groups, 3 orang each group. My group mates were Dibah and Syuaib. For the exercise kami kana bagi 3 projects. Kana suruh imagine kami ani part of a hospital management yang mendecide how to allocate funds. Each of us kana bagi one project to consider then kami mesti decide within 30mins which project to invest in considering the limited funds and how to allocate the funds to the selected projects. It was okay lah, not great just okay since I did not get to talk much. I debated why my project should be chosen and how it was important and all. Syuaib acted pretty much like our leader. A very fair one. He encouraged me and Dibah to talk about our projects. Too much i think, sampai he only got 3 mins to discuss his while we got like 7 mins each. In the end, we decided to go with mine and Syuaib projects. Dibah willingly forfeit sal even she is not convinced of the importance of her project. So it was okay lah. Lucky for me to get these two as my team haha..

The first exercise didnt really scare me cause kami beramai kan. Sekali sudah the second one kabak2 tia ku sal sorang2. Intray ani kami kana bagi like about 15sheets of information. Kana suruh imagine tani ani assistant arah boss kedai makanan, sekali one day ia sakit and tani kana suruh ganti ia. Yang keratas2 lain atu surat2an lah pasal mcam2. Ada yang kan beranti keraja, kan memohon keraja, mengcomplain tia macam2 lah. Then kana suruh assign priority to each task. Kana bagi 1hour to prepare. Then masuk dalam jumpa assessors mesti bagi 5min presentation on the task. VERY AWKWARD. haha, banar. I talked randomly. Gila, i think this one is the most difficult among all lah.. They asked questions like "How do you measure success" and things like that. And one of the most memorable moment for me is when they asked what would I do to this guy which handles my company's account after someone discovered some disparancies in the account. Sekali ku jawap, I would hire and independent investigator to further explain the situation. Sekali katanya would you go as far as sacking this guy? Ku jawap, Definitely no, I would consider sending him to some correction unit (antam saja tia) but I would not go as far as firing him. I firmly believe that everybody deserves a second chance. Esehh, aku pun inda sangka kan jawap catu haha.. Sekali durang cakap "S***L definitely does not believe in that" pastu ketawa tia, entah inda ku paham kenapa haha.. Maybe pasal safety kali, once you screwed up tarus kana kick tanpa ampun dan maaf. Also,in this session, i found some truth in what the HR officer words during the briefing, that the assessors are trying their best to find our talents not our faults. Its very true cause kan I didnt communicate effectively wah during this session. ENglishku beterabur. Everytime durang inda paham cakapku, durang bagi chance untuk explain and then durang rephrase and write down the better sentence. Baik lah durang ani!
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NEXT is the Proposal exercise. In this exercise, we were given 5 problems to choose from. Pilih satu and you were given one hour to propose a solution to the
problem. Again, the first 5 mins masuk jumpa assessors atu mesti bagi presentation of your proposal. I carefully laid out my thoughts masa that 1 hour, then prepare the 5min speech. Masa ku prepare atu ngam2 ia 5min. Tapi masa sudah the real one, 4min saja tia! Belacan eh.. Then lapas ku abis baca scriptku, tediam ku sekajap. Then ku cakap "Actually that was supposed to be the end of my presentation.", sekali ketawa tia dua org assessors ah. Katanya kalau abis, abis lh. Apa blh buat. hahaha.. Then durang tanya lagi lagi details (details yang sebenar2 detailed) pasal your proposal. GILAA, the questions were hard! macam half of the questions aku inda bagi answer haha.. Most of the time aku cakap "can we.." blabla.. catulah, then aku slowly work out answerku based on their answers hahaha.I know, crap aku ah.. What to do, mun namanya udah inda ku tau jawapannya...

Lapas atu abis tia.. We get to eat lagi sekali beramai2. We talk and talk and talk then kana suruh balik tia. Durang gtau dalam mid to end of march durang announce results. TAPI kan, two days later, ada tia durang tipun.. First one inda ku tejawap since aku masih tidur. Then ku tpun balik. sekali sekali sekali, ia tanya "last time kau buat unsure of your course antara computer science and BSP courses. Ani sure sudah?", and aku answer "Ermm... yeah sure.." padahal inda hahaha.. Pastu tanyanya lagi "Uni2mu UCAS ani cemana?" ku jawaplah yang blh diemail minta tukar course(awuu, sitaie aku ah hahaha.. Chemical Engineering lagi beguna Physics tu hahaha) Then baruth ia cakap congratulations ah, you passed our assessment center. Aku tekajutlah since aku inda mau and honestly aku rasa I was super crappy masa session atu. Ku tanya lagi tu "Banr kah? Cana blh?" HAHAHA.... Then baruth ia gtau, since aku tulis last time yang aku considering Chemical, Mechanical and Petroleum engineering, durang kan meeting kan dulu which course kan offer aku. Masa dangar ani aku macam, banar2 jua ia kan mengambil ani. Aku main2 saja. hahahaha. But still, Alhamdulillah lah dapat. At least satu sudah dalam gengaman. Only things to do untuk fully dapat the scholarship is the MIB test sama work placement.

Aku mau DANA masih sebenarnya... Indath kira mesti keraja sama kerajaan, pasal I really2 want to do computer science wah for my degree. Tapikan, towards the end of the phone call ada ia cakap "HECASmu sudah kau antar?", then ku jawap "Sudah", pastu nya "Ahh, bah nanti kami menarik balik.".. FYI, HECAS ani macam UCAS tapinya untuk apply locally di Brunei for Scholarships, UBD, ITB and etc. SOOO, if ia tarik balik nada jua ku apply for scholarships tu. Tarusku bangang, tapi inda jua ku cakap apa2. Mudahan saja ia inda tarik awal2. At least tunggu lah DANA interview orang ah.. Entah eh, aku pun inda sure. Nantith ku email durang lagi tanya whether kami blh tunggu for other scholarship or not. Hmmm..

And lagi satu, Imperial bagi aku conditional offer! Atupun lapas ku email resultsku. TAPI TAPI TAPI durang talur ah! Tau ia udah physicsku B, baginya jua conditional Physics(A), Maths (A*), sama Chemistry(A) or COmputing(A) and Merit in AEA maths. CRAP jua tu offernya ah! Tau udah physicsku B. A* pun alum wujud masa batchku. I have no idea cana durang kan grade A* for my case. Paper maths ku semua plg A but A nya atu brapa inda jua ku tau tu. And pasal AEA maths atu, inda ku tau dimana kan register diBrunei ah! Lain lagi tu syllabusnya. Sedih ku ih :( .... Inda apa lah, nya mamamku mun bukan rezeki atu bukan th tu......

Speaking of my mom.. Tadi aku cerita2 wah sama ia didapur.. Aku cerita lah pasal BCTA ah.. Mamaku ani urang tutong. Iatah ku gtau masa ku di TUtong atu semua bini2 sana ku liat macam nampak mua mamaku wah. Luan rindu kali hehehe.. Aku atu saja2 kan share2 kan, sekali mamaku becerita tia jua. Nya masa ku disana, ia balik2 macam tedangar suaraku becakap padahal abg2/adi2ku becakap. Tarus ia cakap "Balik jua sudah c *my name here* ni", sekali siblingsku heran tarus. AWWWWWWWW, :') , cam sedih ku tarus mendangar. Rasakan ku paluk wah mamaku ah hahaha.. :)) baik jua tua udah aku ani hohoho.. Tarusth ku becerita lagi. Kataku macam ragu2 jua ku kan ke UK. Mun seminggu sudah kecarian, apath lagi 3 tahun.. Ku gtau jua yang aku consider BSP lagi sal of the 1 year in Brunei. Mau jua ku be-elaun untuk balikkan ia hadiah this year :D Sekali nya mamaku, "awu bagus plg tu setaun di Brunei ah. Manasaja lah, ikut apa yang kau mau. Nanti2 biasa jua tu diUK ah.".. Mamaku ani biasa ni.. Ia cakap manasaja plg selalu, tapi selalu ada hint apa sebenarnya yang ia mau. Hehehe, yang banarnya maybe ia inda mau aku belayar langsung kali :P But, I think I have to go abroad at least once lah. To prove something to myself :))

Nah, thats the end of my post. 3 hari composing baruth siap! HAHAHAHA....... Bubye.. See you next week :P

Earth Hour

So, i have just read Blogger J's post on Earth Hour.
Actually, i wanted to post this post as a comment on her blog. But, on second thought I think i should just post here haha..

What is the point of turning off the lamps for just a brief one hour?? Its not like they consume that much energy anyway.. People are better off turning their ACs and PCs haha.. Just my opinion of course. Though seriously, I find it very pointless.
So, to show that you care for our planet, all you have to do is turn off the lights for one hour?? Oooh, if only it is that easy..

Why cant they instead promote things like public transport, energy-efficient computers and bulbs and etc. While they might not seem as dramatic as the "living in the dark for 1 hour" thingy, they will, without doubt, decreases greenhouse emission significantly in the long run.

In case you are wondering, yes, i am against most big organizations that try to "save our planet" when all they care about is $$$. The so called "green organizations" are usually backed up by giant corporations that funded these things to appear "green". heck, it has even become an industry nowadays.

Fortunately, that does not mean I am not aware of the consequences of global warming. I tried my best, as an individual, to reduce my carbon emission by only using notebooks (with integrated graphic adapter, may i add), turning off the lights when Im out and asleep, limit my AC usage to an hour a day and etc.. While I know they are not significant, at least its significantly cutting my carbon emission when compared to that one proposed action for earth hour!

Come on people, is light all that we are willing to lose for our planet? Surely we can do more. And another thing, why does it have to be for just one hour? If you really love our planet (and i doubt you do), try your best to reduce your carbon footprint by changing your daily routine. There is absolutely no need to wait for such (crappy) event to start saving our planet. Is it too hard to care for our planet everyday? At least when you are old and our planet is screwed (though i am sure we will not live to see the consequences of our action.. Thank God for that haha), our great(times X which is a real number)-grandchildren cannot blame us (hahah, lame)..

Thank you. The End

The weeks after results

Ya Rabbi, only God knows how busy and tiring this month is for me..
First thing first, A am not over my results yet, and I doubt I will ever be.
Then, the scholarships..
Alhamdulillah, even with my results I am still eligible for all of the scholarships offered in Brunei.

First, Sultan Scholar.. During our last meeting, I found out that the minimum requirements for SS is just 3As.. So yes, I still have a chance at this thing! haha..
They called me twice, the first one to know my results and the second one to ask me to collect the registration form from their headquarters. But but but, i didn't answer their second call, hahaha.. I was busy with the march-past rehearsal, so payah lah kan jawap. Baik jua Zudin sudah kana call, so I know what they want hahaha..

Second, MinDef Scholarship. Last Monday (kali lah), durang called me. The first question that the lady asked was "What did you get for your Malay O-level?".. Sekali aku jawaplah "B3 saja" with a sad tone, walaupun aku inda tau siapa becakap atu haha.. So then ia cakap "Oh, OK masih tu!..." and only then ia introduced herself. Weird haha.. They want me to come to their scholarship briefing last Friday. I went there, sekali sudah sampai I waited for Zudin. Tapi di tlipun inda menjawap so naik th ku bas (bangunan where the event will take place ani mesti pakai bas masuk, kerita biasa inda kana suruh. Dunno why.) and off to the hall. Sudah ku masuk, ada rupanya c Zudin sudah! Belacan th banar. One more thing, sudah ku sampai atu baru ku realized yang aku sorang saja pakai baju cara melayu hahaha.. Orang lain semua pakai formal attire. Well inda pulang ku ingau, pasal th tu. lagipun banyak CINA, so pedulith ku tuu..

During the briefing, kami kana explain pasal the selection process. And the selection process begins this month! Arghhhh... Gila, atu panjang processnya! Ada oral interview, written test, short speech, presentation, leadership test and so on. Iatah aku inda berharap langsung ni haha, but Im still gonna take a shot at it. Sayang jua kan, alang2 udah layak atu, cuba saja tia.. And another thing yang ku suka, they specifically stated Computer Science as one of the preferred field. haha, Alhamdulillah. Suka lah ku tarus, iatah aku cuba ani :)

Third one is the BSP scholarship. They are not offering scholarship for Computer Science. Tapi tadi they called and asked whether I still want to go through their assessment center or not and hence their scholarship. Sekali aku gtau lah, "Im keeping my options open." hahaha, sekali katanya bah.. then gtau nya tia that this Tuesday we are going to Seria and tidur sana! Woohoo! Funny thing is, she mentioned that Zudin asked about me when she called her! haha, and katanya "Walaupun we provide one room for each, but you can still share room if you are scared..", atu ketawa ku tarus hahahaha... Sekali katanya if aku dapat scholarship durang, apa course aku mau buat. Ku gtau saja Chemical Engineering.. Pasal awal2 before I did computing for my A-levels, ani plg sebenarnya targetku tapi udah ku belajar computing atu tukar tia jadi Computer Science. Tapi katanya, for Chemical Engineering, mesti buat twinning program arah ITB and arah this one Uni at scotland yang aku inda pernah dangar. This is a real letdown for me... but again, im still gonna try to get this scholarship! hahaha, i heard their assessment center was really hard..

Final one is the MoE scholarships.. The DANA and Special Scheme.. Again, I met the requirements for both of them. So cuba2 lah saja apply.. the DANA one is on the top of my preferred scholarship. Why? Cause the selection process is the simplest of all and yet we still get to choose our future career although kana bonded with the government.

BTW, did you remember about the HSBC Young Entrepreneur Award Competition thingy that Me, Zudin and Liyana joined? Yes, we made it to round 2 haha.. For round 2, we were required to write a business plan. And kami alum start langsung! haha... Tomorrow we are gonna meet at Zudin's house untuk discuss. Mudahan saja sampat buat eh. if inda pun inda pulang papa, as long as we get the certificates.

So, this month aku ada:
1) Projek Belia Cinta Tanah Air
2) HSBC business plan
3) MinDef tests (including a medical checkup..)
4) Mengantar SS borang yang alum ku ambil
5) BSP tests
6) Abgku kan betunang next week! Baru ku tau yesterday :S hahaha..

Pokoknya sibuk lah this month. Kadang2 masa untuk tidur pun dalam 2 jam saja.. hmm.. Tapikan, I do realize that I am currently being offered many opportunities that many can only dream of having. So, I will try my best and let the rest be decided by Allah. Wish me luck! Assalamualaikum..

Resultku

So, okay.. my prediction for the release date of our results was a wee bit off, tapi still it wasn't that far haha..

So, tadi around 1.30PM, people started SMS-ing and MSN-ing "results keluar, blablabla", of-course initially only people with inside contacts know their results before kana published, so aku inda berapa peduli lah. Then, ada my chinese fren cakap kawannya sudah kana SMS. Tarus tia ku takut..

Tunggu2 dalam 15mins, ada tia SMS. The verdict is:

Chem:A , Maths:A , Comp:A and............. can i leave this one out?? Well.....
Phy : B :( :( :( :(

So yes, unfortunately my fear of getting B for physics is NOT unfounded. And yes, I am VERY disappointed with myself. Now, everytime people say "Tahniah/COngrats/blabla" , it actually hurts. Gila macam, apakan dicongratulate ni results ku ani??? Ahh, sakit2... So please, don't congratulate me. ok? :)

And BTW, CONGRATULATIONS to our very own AizuddinHY. Now that is one congrats-worthy results. Ia dapat perfect score! 3A! woohoo.. He beat me in Physics.. *Salutes*, so I guess you are the smartest kid now in our circle, yes? At least until those 2 UK-ians get their results anyway hahahhaha...

What else ah.. Hmmm, yang ku tau results kawan2 tani is C Ayam Bini Tuha, but i don't know if she wants me to declare it here or not, so lets just wait for her post, all right?

On the bright side, being around family really helps at such times. My mom and sisters kept saying "Baik udah tu 3A, urang lain mau 3A-level saja", "payah sudah tu kan dapat atu ah, besyukurth." and "B jua saja..." .. entah ah, kalau urang lain cakap macam nada effect, tambah sakit hati ada lah. Tapi kalau family cakap atu mcm soothing wah, like they really mean it.. Ahh, i love my family. May Allah bless my family until the end of our lives, Amin..

So, i guess there will be no bio exam for me this year after all.. And no resits, cause S-scholarship only wants 3A (although sources told me that they only select people who got all A's in all the taken subjects, i.e. AizuddinHY , people like me arent really wanted cause of that one freaking B) but I am still hoping that at least they will still interview me. Amin

At least my 2 offers will be turning to unconditional soon. Hopefully. Imperial alum reply. EH speaking of imperial, rupanya they didn't really need Physics for Computing like they wrote in their prospectus. Ada error, fuhh. haha, baru lagi mencheck tu aku ah.. :D And as for southampton, only one postcard saja from them. No email or anything else. I guess they don't really want me. Sad :( Which is a shame, cause I really enjoyed a talk by one of their computing lecturer masa arah UK Exhibition at Empire.

If worsts comes to worst, I can just shut my mouth up and study at UBD for their twinning program. tapi nauzubillah lah, I will try my best to get ANY scholarship first before surrendering to such fate. But you know what, at least now I already have a good A-level result and I finally can move on to concentrate more on my future plans. And I really am thankful for that, Alhamdulillah..

la la la la

When you are bored, the last thing on your mind is suicide.

- Anonymous

So does that answer your question?

Movie Review

I have just finished watching The Forbidden Kingdom and I think the whole experience can be summed up into one single word, CRAP!.

Banarr, it was crap-tastic. Which is a shame cause of all the casts in it. Well, not really pulang haha.. Jet Li, typically he would just maintain one facial expression throughout his films. In this context, he was a bit better pulang, but just by a bit. In this film he either smile, maintain a serious face or make that one "funny" monkey face. At least its an improvement right? Hmm.. Then Jackie Chan.. Sama saja macam filem2 lain, nada, nil, zero difference. Then there is that white boy, he was okay i guess. Not too bad but definitely not good. I think OKAY is the perfect word. One exception is the chinese girl, which I think was goooood.. but only when she put her hair in a ponytail though, masa ia inda pakai catu then she became "okay" saja hahaha..

The script was a disaster. It was mostly awkward, tapi ada pulang the funny moments haha.. And the score! Oh man, it was terrible! Hahahha, not really that terrible but after watching Memoirs of a Geisha, i expected better from the western composers when it involved writing a score for asian-oriented movies. I should have known better...

One thing that I realized though are the uncanny similarities with the Lord of the Ring trilogy. I mean, at first the way the group was formed. Then the training. How the weakest was chosen to bear the 'task', then sending the white boy alone. The potion which heals any wounds, the death of the main female character and yada yada yada.. Banyak lah.. I dunno if it was just me, but i really do think that they are at least copying some elements from LOTR.

No character development at all. Even towards the end of the film, I still couldn't care less about what will happen to the characters. It was that bad! The actions was good though, nothing amazing, just the typical kung-fu scenes.

Overall, i would rate it 1.5/5 , honestly I don't know why I am being this generous. Maybe it have something to do with all the chinese in it hahaha...
THE END.

PS: I am thankful that I didn't download this myself. Got it from my friend. Lucky that I didn't waste any of my bandwidth for this "thing". Fuhh..

Results..

Mati batah eh kan keluar results ani! Kalau durang kan buat macam our last june's result, ertinya hari Isnin, 8th Feb baruth keluar! 6 hari lagi tu yo, super lonnggg... I don't know how i managed to wait this long..... eh wait, i do. By eating and sleeping all day long. Crap, makin basar th punggungku ni.

Gila, inda ku tau mengapa. Everytime results kan keluar baruth ku takut. haha. Pasalkan honestly, aku inda berapa belajar this time around. Macam telampau bnyk enjoy ada jua. Im not worried pasal Maths and Chemistry pulang, cause i did my revisions on them properly. Yang ku ingau is Physics! Sal aku cover/revise the whole A2 syllabus in one day wah.. And macam 60% yang ku baca that day was totally new, haha. Maybe pasal aku inda dangar cakap cgku (yang boringnya teramatlah sangat tapi amat baik arah kami) or pasal ia inda pernah ajar kami langsung. Seriously though, mcm banyak ia inda ajar wah. Ish2, takutku eh. Sal if there's even a single B in my results (excluding GP la, duhh, obviously I wont get an A for that ahaha :D ) abis tia hancur punah harapanku untuk dapat this particular scholarship.

Sama lagi satu yang ku ingaukan is Computing! Bukan plg pasal aku inda berapa revise (ok, this is an understatement haha..). I did plg, ganya macam like inda as thorough as i wanted wah. Plus, CIE ani unpredictable. Especially pasal the projects. Although i submitted a brand new project, yang bagiku 200% better than my last one, tapi macam there were many things yang boleh di-improve wah. Hmm..

Pasal maths and chem, ani aku confident sikit lah. Inda jua blh over confident kan, karang if inda dapat (Nauzubillah) aku yang mental breakdown. Ehh entah eh, keluarth kau wah results! So i can just get over you and go on with my life! hahaha, see.. this is what this long wait has done to me :D

So overall apa targetku for my results? Hopefully, 4As lah. Amin amin amin *Laju aminkan tia! sampat masih ni! hahaha* but, worst-case-scenario i think is 2A and 2B.. Nauzubillah.. Noooo, inda ku mau ada B eh, if ada definitely aku re-sit tu! Inda ku peduli! hahaha... Actually, i HAVE to resit if there are 2 Bs sal offers ku mostly 3As..

Ahhh, offerr.. STILL NO NEWS DARI IMPERIAL AH!! Crap eh, ani pun ku ijap nii.. I WANT YOU IMPERIALLLL :( Tapikan masa ani aku mcam kurang sudah sikit harapan atu sal computing department durang ani macam over-competitive wah. Sudahth durang mau admission test, nanti lapas dapat results paksa lagi sit for AEA Maths paper. Syllabus nya lagi weird tu, entah lah. Mudahan saja durang bagi offer without the AEA requirement, Amin... If inda pun, arah Bristol or Southampton ku saja.. Sanang sikit hidupku.. More money untuk aku hahaha..

Tapi one thing for sure, lapas dapat results ani banar-banar ku belajar MIB ni! And yes, I will lie during the interviews this time around. The last interviews taught me that HONESTY won't bring you any goods in these interviews. If dulu durang tanya "Why should we choose you?" aku jawap "Im flexible, highly adaptable with above average intelligence." This time around I will answer "Im a brilliant, hardworking student who wouldn't settle unless I get the best! I am very competitive, confident and is definitely capable of reaching any goals once i have set my mind onto it. With my impressive social skills, I don't see myself having any problems in fitting in with my future colleagues. All that plus my excellent grades and my super-consistent performance, I honestly dont see any reasons why you should not choose me. In case you decide to do so, make no mistake that it will entirely be your loss." HAHAHAHAHAH, gila, mun cematu ku jawap, lagi tia awal kana tandang keluar bilik kali :D . Mun durang balas "You are an extremely cocky, arrogant, pretentious and annoying candidate. I think we have heard enough of your crap. That's all. Thank you for trying." sandi tu eh, hahahah.. Tapi seriously, this time around I will be prepared for these interviews! InsyaAllah.

PS: Blogger J, can you please taruh a tagboard here? Hehehe, pretty pretty pleaseeee... And who put that Perez Hilton link here? I think I seriously hurt my eyes when I visited his(or is it HER?) blog. Thank you! Lap u my nesechi friend :D

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its been long time and soon 5Sci will be reunion ni. huhuuuu i miss every each of 5Sci classmates. and also not to forget the teachers. especially Mr Teoh. GOD! miss him :/

dont know whats latest update of every each of 5Sci-mates. i need a miracle please. . .

I hate you so much even though you don't know me

I am mad. Very, very mad. I hate people who 'unintentionally' make people do things they otherwise won't have done. In my case, this bitch - yes, bitch, I feel I'm fully qualified to call her this - have wasted both me and my cousin's TIME. She wasted my bandwidth and FTP storage space. She forced me to encrypt my code. Bitch.

The bitch in question is my cousin's boyfriend's niece. She is a major faker. She copies everything off my cousin, just because she thinks she can get away with it. Well, no. You can't. Stop whining, you are 17 years old not 7. Are you so stuck up you don't even know what PLAGIARISM means? Yet you want your parents' trust. Who the heck will trust you, if you spill secrets meant to be secrets left and right until the whole world knows?

Seriously. There is only one good outcome out of this mess, and that is my website getting more traffic. I feel seriously guilty, siphoning off my cousin's misfortune. Who do I blame? You, bitch. If you haven't exist then my cousin can have her blog hosted happily by me, and I won't have to write that copyright warning. It's not like I didn't enjoy writing it. It's just I wish there will be less retarded people in this world who will force me to write notices like this, and to add to my many misfortune, too retarded to understand the damn notices.

I am usually a positive person, and I don't dislike people for no reasons. So when I said I hate that bitch, I really do hate her. Wasted my time, wasted my FTP storage space, wasted my bandwidth, and still maintaining that innocent façade. Cause my cousin numerous sufferings. My website is so unlucky after she viewed it.

Why don't you continue your façade, and let us watch you grow into the bitch you really are. That particular boy is unlucky after you first laid eyes on him. I imagine he must be mentally ill to think you are the girl for him, which doesn't suit me well. Paired up, they will produce more retarded people in this already retarded-people-crowded world. Oh, if only I can wield a knife and just kill off these stupid, stupid people.

i don't care if you know who I am, because I stand my ground. Plagiarism is a serious offence; do it again and I will ban you from ever coming near my website. Do it again and I will guarantee you a jail term.

Them bitches

Didn't know

The world hates them

Cos their mind's skewered

If your traffic suddenly increase

Do not celebrate

For they are there to bash

Not there to love

If your tagboard is flooded

Don't be ecstatic

Expand your tiny brain a l'il

Cause they are here to hate

If you get married

The bride should be old men

As in really really old

Like 90 plus maybe?

Them bitches

Didn't know

The world hates them

But we'll let them know

Them bitches © 2010 xinping2016

Do not rip this ream without permission. Doing so will result in a major law suit being filed against you. And no I don't care if you are 30 years old or 3 years old, copyright IS copyright. No exceptions.

The bitch in question: http://yourprincesswannabe.blogspot.com/

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hi :) its 2010 dah,kan 20 dah ku ni taun ani ö payah kan pecaya heh,tapi au,its the fact that i have to accept,im getting older huhu.and time to get more serious. results pun inda lagi batah out ni. bedebar debar jua ku menunggu ni,takut ku.tapi mudahan saja okay and excellent. Amin. Ps pun alum siap.baru first draft,tapi im still waiting for help from orang orang yang kan tolong huhu. em apa lagi ah?aku rindu the times when we were all in 5sci tu. siuk that class. reunion pun aku inda datang :( huhu. tapi au,aku rindu semua orang. walaupun aku kira silent from all other 5sci classmates tapi i do liat updates kamu, its been years inda jumpa.except for orang yang ada di ptem.tapi still,since ptem,5sci macam makin kurang dah..rindu eh...